Questions

I have a lot of questions in my head.

And I don't know the answer. I never will.

Who knows?

Who knows... What I'm thinking? What I'm feeling? What I'm experiencing?

>:( angry person

Urg. There are so much things that pisses me off. Wtf

I'm a very unhappy person. I get angry/annoyed/irritated very very easily.

U can easily annoy me by leaning against or hugging the train's pole,

Or squeeze into the fucking packed train.

Or hugging your partner like there's supper glue sticked onto your partner's and your body. Or by not replying any of my texts.

All the small little trivial things will just piss me off. And I just can't seem to cool myself down. And I can't get to sleep easily when I'm angry.

I have to, I need to vent all my anger out before I can appease. But again, my way of venting my anger is hurling vulgarities at someone. Now, who will allow me to do that? And I get even more angry now.

I want to be a happier person too. But I don't know how I can stop being such pain in the ass. Really. I tried to stop caring about how others behave. But I can't. I can't. When people do things that's not how I do or not by my principle, I get angry.

I wish I could be a happy person. At least happier than who I am now.

No wonder I got not much friends... No wonder...

I hope it's either, all of u listen to me or I can be less cynical.

All over again

Suddenly... I feel so stressful all over again.

Present

<3

Insomnia

Now... I can't sleep w/o the medicine.... And this feeling suck. It makes me very angry. And my body just feel so fucking weird. >:(

Eye candy

My new eye candy, Real Madrid goal keeper!

Presenting.... Iker Casillas!

<3<3<3

Gratification

I am not the best, yet.
But my family, Herman, his family, give, gave, are still giving me all their support. I'm really grateful for this.

I wish I could go on a holiday...

Future

I don't believe in fortune telling. I think they are bull shit. And a waste of money.

Future lies in our own hands. How u want your future to be, u carve it yourself. I'm now on my way to carve my future. Not kidding not joking. I'm serious! But I'm kind of curious, how many 19 year olds are actually thinking of their future alr?

Was hospitalized for a few days this week. The good thing is, I'm fine now and my family is getting along with Herman's family. I'm really thankful for this!

I hope all things end well.