Fucked up

I dunno what to do, how to react, what to feel, how to help.

I really don't know. I'm lost.

Whatever I do to help, it's useless because you don't seem to understand what I do is to help u. I can't do anything more. I'm tired.

What makes me more fatigue, mentally, emotionally is when the qns posted to me by my mom. "who do u want to follow"

Why can't I have both of u at the same time? Why can't u all just put down your pride or ego to solve this to make things better?

For a few times, I really wished I have some kind of illness or whatsoever. At least I know everyone will come tgt and care for each other and me.

I'm not a superwoman. I don't have super powers.

I need love, care, and concern too.
I'm a girl.

A fucking naive girl.