Forgiveness? Gratitude? Love?

Today was a day I did a lot of reflections. And one thing that is still clueless to me is forgiveness. 

I thought I had overcome it. But actually I haven't. I was just avoiding it. Today I had to face it by sharing it. It was painful but I felt relived cos I finally let it all out and said every word from the bottom of my heart. So have I forgiven? Will I forgive? Can I forgive? Still clueless but am trying to search for answers. 

It is also today that I realized those whom have caused pain and hurt were educators who taught me love and trust. Though (I wished) these lessons could have come in a more peaceful way. 

Grateful for those whom have stood by me. Especially Herman my love. Without you my love, I wouldn't know how to love. Very thankful of everything that you've done for me. And of cos your family who has always treated me as one of you. You don't know how much that meant to me. Really very very grateful and thankful. 

Also appreciate my grandma, aunts and sisters who have educated me and see me grow. 

Extremely thankful for 2 crazy friends I have met from sec 1 till now who brought me joy. 

Listened to many life stories and learned from each and everyone. 

Today was truly an amazing, yet overwhelming experience I had. 

May God bless all of us.